I'm a college student whose mom has terminal Brain Cancer. Please check out my blog: http://t.co/nBzpU9KI
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) January 16, 2012
It's been a year since my mom was diagnosed with Brain Cancer. How much time does she have left? http://t.co/lO0lt5b1 #WorldCancerDay
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 5, 2012
Everytime I go home to visit my mom, it's so hard to say goodbye. I tear up almost everytime. #Cancer is a terrible thing. #ACureCantWait
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 8, 2012
Just got a random text from my mom: "Hi Misha! I love you!" Love you too, Mommy ♥ #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 12, 2012
I got news that my mom had her second seizure this morning. This one was very minor compared to the first, thank goodness. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 17, 2012
After the seizure this morning, my mom's doing well. Thanks for support @andynaranjo @alexajarvis @heatherwgaona #btsm pic.twitter.com/3RjtNP5H
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 18, 2012
I just learned that my mom is having an MRI on Monday to see if the @Tocagen clincal trial has worked. Please pray that it has! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 24, 2012
My sister called me 3 hours ago and told me that my dad took my mom to @ucsf ER #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
Since last night, my mom has had trouble walking and talking. She also threw up twice and fell once. So they went to the ER. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
My dad said they've been running tests on my mom for 3 huors and it would take about 6 hours before we know anything. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
I hate spending the afternoon crying. Gives me such a headache!
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
I'm so tired from all the crying today. But I have to stay awake. My dad's supposed to call me after they get the test results back.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
The wait is killing me. I hate imagining my mom in the hospital.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
Just got a call from my parents! The doctors aren't sure what exactly is causing the problems. Might be swelling or fluids. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
My mom is going to spend a few days in the hospital. She still has her MRI sheduled for Monday. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
She was well enough to speak, and she kept complaining about how the doctors have no respect for privacy: "Privacy is a huge problem here."
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 26, 2012
Visited my mom at the hospital today. She's doing MUCH better! Her left arm only trembles slightly and her mind still isn't perfect. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 27, 2012
But she can walk and talk just fine! And her sense of humor is definitely back! Thank you to the doctors and nurses at @UCSF for everything!
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 27, 2012
She had an MRI today, but no report from the oncologist yet. I'm keeping my fingers crossed! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 27, 2012
Got the results from the MRI. My mom's tumor is spreading in several directions from the right frontal lobe. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 27, 2012
The oncologist wants to take my mom off the @Tocagen trial because the tumor's growing. But my dad thinks she should stay on it. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 27, 2012
I'm not sure if surgery is an option. They have another appointment with the oncologist tonight to talk about treatments options. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 27, 2012
Got a text from my mom. I guess her hand won't stop shaking. #btsm --- ('7 I am ddi happy! So Hsppyb I tori ed in Nazz's seems:::(:;)!
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 27, 2012
The @ucsf Neurooncology Board will be reviewing my mom's case on Thursday. So no options about treatments until then. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) February 28, 2012
The @UCSFCancer BT Board will be looking at my mom's case tomorrow. Hoping for a better reaction than what we got from @UCLAJCCC! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) March 1, 2012
I love getting sweet texts from my mom: "boos, boos, boos, love you, love you, love you" ("boos" means "kiss" in Farsi) #BTSM
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) March 4, 2012
One voicemail from my aunt and I'm a crying mess. Anything sets me off lately. And all she wanted was my address to send me a birthday card!
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) March 11, 2012
Okay. Done crying. Back to studying.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) March 11, 2012
I got this book for my birthday, and I love it! So excited to read through the whole thing! #btsm pic.twitter.com/O5MkoJT4
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) March 20, 2012
Today, my mom looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, "There's always a chair in my heart and you're sitting in it." #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) March 26, 2012
Today is my mom's birthday! I've made her this scarf for her birthday. I hope she likes it! #btsm pic.twitter.com/Z85WQ2WP
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) March 28, 2012
Just called my mom's phone. Listened to her answering machine. Then I remembered that she can't talk that clearly or sharply anymore. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 1, 2012
Decided to cut my Economics class to surprise my mom at home. I got home just as she was starting her nap. #Btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 3, 2012
I'm starving but I don't want to leave my mom's side. #btsm #CancerDaughterProblems
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 3, 2012
And she's awake!!! #winning #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 3, 2012
My mom sent me this text the other day about my haircut: "Youe hircu rlooks besuirul mish, you shoul dbe pou!" #btsm #braintumorthursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 5, 2012
It breaks my heart to see her have such difficulty typing. #btsm #braintumorthursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 5, 2012
I dream about my mom every night. In my dreams, she's active and happy. Like how she was back in July or so... But then I wake up. #BTSM
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 6, 2012
"Okay Mommy. Here's your bowl of soup." "I don't want the bowl. Just the soup." #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 11, 2012
Spent the evening at home with my mom. She looks much better than when I saw her on Sunday. #hope #btsm http://t.co/RETfh1yv
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 11, 2012
She's not doing well physically, but her mind was quite sharp tonight. Sharpest I've seen her in a long time. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 11, 2012
My mom's MRI is on Monday to see if the Avastin is working. #BrainTumorThursday #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 12, 2012
Text from Mom: "I love you& miss youn to. Loet me know when I can see youagain ." Her typing is so much better! #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 12, 2012
I'm going to thank Avastin for her improved typing skills. Hopefully it's a good predictor for her MRI on Monday. #BrainTumorThursday #Hope
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 12, 2012
Today my mom doesn't need her wheelchair! She's walking around with her walker! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 13, 2012
My mom on her 52nd birthday last month. She wouldn't wait until after the Happy Birthday song to eat her cake! #BTSM pic.twitter.com/O4b0phnR
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 14, 2012
#ThatDepressingMoment when I look at photos of my mom then (2009) and now #btsm But she's still beautiful ♥ pic.twitter.com/DmlarZHV
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 15, 2012
Happy Sunday! #btsm http://t.co/2iBeCMiu
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 15, 2012
My mom's MRI is today! Please send positive vibes. We're hoping the Avastin has been working. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 16, 2012
My mom just called me to tell me the results of today's MRI: the tumors are shrinking!!!!!!!!!!! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 17, 2012
I've never been so happy in my entire life!!!!!!! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 17, 2012
I now know what it feels like to sob tears of happiness. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 17, 2012
Can't. Stop. Smiling. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 17, 2012
I just want to tell the world that Avastin is truly amazing. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 17, 2012
My mom asked me to paint her nails. I haven't done that in about 10 years, but it turned out pretty good! #btsm pic.twitter.com/SDUZCWak
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 22, 2012
My mom's sense of humor seems to be doing better! But now she makes her jokes in her native Farsi, so I don't usually understand them. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 22, 2012
Mom woke up this morning irritated that she couldn't get herself out of bed. Dad said: "I'm grateful for each morning you wake up." #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 22, 2012
Made my mom a friendship bracelet during her nap today! Rainbow bracelet for Team Rainbow! http://t.co/xeerDbam #btsm pic.twitter.com/ZnyfinUS
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 23, 2012
My mom had a good day today! She was a speed demon with her walker and even walked a bit by herself! #btsm pic.twitter.com/rhbOHfMr
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 23, 2012
Until test results are back from today, no more Avastin. Which of course scares me because it's the only reason she's doing better. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 23, 2012
Told my mom that she was meeting with the neurosurgeon today, and she just stuck her fingers in her ears and yelled "lalalalalalala!" #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 23, 2012
Doctors say my mom has too much fluid in her brain which is why her movement/balance haven't gotten better with the good MRI results. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 24, 2012
She's going to have surgery to remove the fluid. Only downside is that she has to be off Avastin for 4 weeks before the surgery. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 24, 2012
I'm worried her tumor will grow back in those 4 weeks... #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 24, 2012
My mom's brain tumor is in her frontal lobe, that's the part that controls your personality and decision-making skills. #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 27, 2012
Because of the location of her brain tumor, my mom almost seems like a different person now. I've watched her slip away #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 27, 2012
Had a dream last night that I was planning my mom's funeral and I didn't know if she wanted to be buried or cremated or what. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 27, 2012
Probably a reminder for me to ask her what should would like. Probably good information to have. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 27, 2012
Maybe she'll to donate her body to science. Anything for scientists to learn more about this evil Gliosarcoma tumor. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 27, 2012
I cried this morning when I realized that I wouldn't be able to visit my mom today because I have too much homework. #IHateCollege
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 29, 2012
Visited my mom! She looks even better than last week! Spent some time in the sun & made a "Happy Memories List"! #btsm pic.twitter.com/foBniirD
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 29, 2012
She's going to the hospital tomorrow for a spinal tap to find out if she needs a shunt. She's not looking forward to it. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 29, 2012
Mom's been in the hopsital for 5 hours & they still haven't started her spinal tap. To say she's getting grumpy is an understatement. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) April 30, 2012
My mom had her spinal tap procedure on Monday. They're keeping her at the hospital until Thursday (the reason is unknown to me). #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 2, 2012
I love my mom so much. I'm going to miss her so much. I don't want her to go anywhere. She's my mom! I love her! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 3, 2012
Sometimes I just can't control the tears. Glad I wasn't in public this time. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 3, 2012
My mom should be discharged from the hospital today! Five days at @ucsf for a stupid spinal tap. The shunt procedure is next Friday. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 4, 2012
My mom asked my to recite her a Persian nursery rhyme before her nap, but I couldn't remember any! Good thing my Grandma was here! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 5, 2012
My mom's shunt operation is at 6am tomorrow morning. And it looks like she'll be in the hospital for Mother's Day #btsm #braintumorthursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 10, 2012
Mom is in port-op. She looks pretty good! She can't talk yet, too exhausted. But she seems pretty aware. Good eye contact. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 11, 2012
Well this is awkward. My dad left the room for a minute and the nurse starts asking me questions. Like her eating habits and such. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 11, 2012
Wish I knew the answers... This is uncomfortable. Nurse asked if mom's been doing better since the spinal tap. And I don't know... #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 11, 2012
Probably a sign that I should spend more time with my mom. Once a week just doesn't cut it. So glad school ended yesterday. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 11, 2012
Shunt has been put in and looking good! She's rocking the asymmetrical haistyle! #btsm pic.twitter.com/xYpSFqR9
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 11, 2012
Sitting in the surgical waiting room for my mom to be assigned a room for overnight And my dad is snoring way too loud. #embarrassing #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 11, 2012
I always get nervous when the nurse comes to ask my mom to say her name and the year. So glad she got the answers right! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 11, 2012
Nurse: "Are you in pain?" Mom: (with difficulty) "...Yes" Nurse: "Would you like some medication?" Mom: "...No" #btsm #BraveMom
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 12, 2012
It hurts to see other girls my age having a good time around town with their mom. I wish my mom could walk on her own. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 12, 2012
Sometimes I get sad when I realize that I can't have the normal college experience all my friends are having.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 12, 2012
Tomorrow is Mother's Day and I don't know if my mom will be in the hospital or not. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 12, 2012
When I think about what my mom has gone through in the past 18 months, it makes me wonder how many surgeries one brain can handle. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 12, 2012
Mom's still in the hospital . Hopefully getting discharged today. Happy Mother's Day #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 13, 2012
My sister and I used to always make my mom breakfast in bed for Mother's Day. But the hospital's got that covered this year. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 13, 2012
I almost went home today to visit my mom. Good thing my dad called me to tell me she hadn't been discharged before I left! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 15, 2012
Mom transfered to @CPMCinSF today for 5 days of physical therapy. Hoping that with the shunt + PT, she'll be able to walk again! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 15, 2012
Enjoying lunch at @CPMCinSF. Had a great morning of physical therapy. Check out the incision from the shunt! #btsm pic.twitter.com/N8lBuLLe
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 15, 2012
My mom just poured ice water in her glass of milk... #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 15, 2012
Mom's having a good chuckle watching America's Funniest Home Videos. Love seeing her laugh! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 15, 2012
Spur of the moment MRI scheduled for my mom in 20 minutes! Hoping for good news! #btsm #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 17, 2012
Mom's new treatment plan: USE EVERY CHEMO DRUG WE CAN GET OUR HANDS ON (@Tocagen, Avastin, & 2 other trial drugs) #btsm #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 17, 2012
Male, Hispanic, and probably gay nurse came to take my mom's vitals. She says "Anyone ever told you you're cute?" He turned bright red #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 17, 2012
Got to the @CPMCinSF Hospital to visit my mom and she wasn't there! Guess my parents are at @UCSFCancer discussing the MRI results. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 22, 2012
MRI showed tumor growth, as was expected. @Tocagen and other clinical trial drug start next week. Avastin in 3 weeks. #btsm #hope
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 22, 2012
My mom: "Lately I've been dreaming about stuff from a long time ago. Like last night I dreamt about Mark Zuckerberg getting married." #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 23, 2012
Getting my mom from the wheelchair to the bed takes 5 min & 2 nurses. Hope @CPMCinSF can teach her to walk again. #btsm #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 24, 2012
I tell people mom has cancer. They ask how she's doing. I say not good. They ask if theres hope for remission. I say no. #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 24, 2012
My mom's still at @CPMCinSF trying to learn how to walk again. Not going very well though. She still can't stand. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 26, 2012
I thought this shunt was suposed to help her movement! But I'm grateful her mind hasn't gotten any worse in several weeks. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 26, 2012
At the hospital with my mom. She's so excited I brought cherries. Only problem: she forgets to spit out the pits. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 26, 2012
My mom seems to have lost almost all of her movement in her left arm. Why is she not improving? #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 26, 2012
At the hospital with my mom and dad. They're both asleep. #QualityTime #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 26, 2012
My mom said she's tired of hospital food. Thinking I might just order a pizza to our hospital room... Can I do that? #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 26, 2012
Dad went to pick up the clinical trial chemo drugs. But they won't give it to my mom until she has a pregnancy test! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 27, 2012
Seriously?! Trust me. There is no way my mom is pregnant. She's already gone through menopause! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 27, 2012
And now we have to wait until Tuesday for the chemo drugs! Stupid Memorial Day. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 27, 2012
Pizza guy came right to our hospital room! And #PrincessAndTheFrog is on TV! It's a good night here @CPMCinSF! #btsm pic.twitter.com/tHMLc6M0
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 27, 2012
Nurse came into the room. My mom said, "I have a problem! I have to go to the hospital! I've had an erection for more than 4 hours!" #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 27, 2012
Apparently my mom thinks that #PrincessAndTheFrog is a very stupid movie. She didn't think that when we watched it a few months ago! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 27, 2012
My mom's Happy Memory Journal seems to only include stories of my and my sister when we were very little. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 27, 2012
Mom (with a blank face): "Ow." The nurse: "I have poked you with the needle yet." #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 27, 2012
Mom drew with pastels like she used to before the diagnosis! But her art looks a lot different now. #btsm #mphc pic.twitter.com/cXhR8zoM
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 28, 2012
Goodness these nurses like to wake my mom up every 3 hours and poke her with needles! #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 28, 2012
Mom's been in rehab 2 weeks. She got the shunt. Her motion was supposed to get better, not worse! We stopped Avastin for this? #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 28, 2012
Watching my mom try to stand is so sad. Her left arm just hangs there. Is there hope that her arm can get better? #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 28, 2012
Good news! My mom isn't pregnant! So she can start the CCNU chemo today! Hopefully we'll start the @Tocagen this week too. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 29, 2012
Absolutely terrified that we made the wrong decision to take my mom off Avastin for this shunt procedure. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 31, 2012
I didn't want to do it. My dad didn't want to do it. My mom didn't even want to do it. But all the doctors said it was a good idea. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) May 31, 2012
Looks like my mom & now my dad are starting to give up on physical therapy. She's not improving. My mom just wants to go home. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 1, 2012
I drew a picture of GG Bridge with pastel & Mom is fixing it with pen. Forever an architect! #btsm #mphc pic.twitter.com/fFxoYxoo
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 3, 2012
Nurse came in to test my mom's blood sugar. She asked which finger my mom wanted to use. My mom gave her a fierce middle finger. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 3, 2012
Today is National Cancer Survivors Day. So jealous of all the tweets that say "Dear Cancer, my mom won." My mom's losing. #mphc #fuckcancer
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 4, 2012
Dad invited me to a "big meeting with the staff" tomorrow at the physical therapy rehab to talk about "where we go from here." #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 5, 2012
Mom was supposed to stay at rehab for another week. But looks like she might just go home because she's not improving.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 5, 2012
Found this picture of my mom from just 2 years ago. pic.twitter.com/bo2iTT0A
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 5, 2012
My mom decides to tell me her dying wish for me and she says it in Farsi! Damn I wish I worked harder in Farsi class when I was a kid! #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 5, 2012
Update on my mom: Doctors have decided acute rehab has not been working. She will go home on Monday and therapists will come to her. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 6, 2012
Avastin will begin on Friday or Tuesday. (Yay!) And doctors say she's not ready for Hospice care (Yay! again!) #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 6, 2012
My mom added fireworks to the picture! #mphc #btsm pic.twitter.com/7xcP1Pu4
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 6, 2012
Mom has started saying things like "My time is limited" & "I don't think I'll be here much longer". How do I make her have hope? #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 7, 2012
Dad just called. Said that Mom has gotten worse since I saw her on Tues. Avastin starts on Monday, but if that doesn't work... #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 8, 2012
She's going home Monday. Dad got her a hospital bed & portable sling. I still can't believe my mom can't even stand on her own. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 8, 2012
My mom has lost movement of her left arm and leg, and now she's convinced that it's spreading to her right side. She's terrified. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 8, 2012
The acupuncturist speaks some Farsi! Nothing makes her more excited than speaking Farsi with the nurses and doctors!
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 8, 2012
I brought the kids game Guess Who to play with my mom. She remembers the rules, but it's too complicated for her to play now. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 8, 2012
She remembers when i was little it was too complicated for me and how she tried to explain the concept of "process of elimination". #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 8, 2012
She remembers all that, but she still can't play the game right. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 8, 2012
My mom signed up for @lumosity to help stimulate her brain. Amazing to watch which games she's good at and which she struggles with. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 10, 2012
She's good with arithmetic & memory (not controlled by right frontal lobe). But she has trouble with quick decision-making. @lumosity #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 10, 2012
Mom told Dr she's been dying for Chinese food. He wrote her prescription for pork fried rice & pot stickers! #btsm pic.twitter.com/247n7U13
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 10, 2012
Mom is losing motion on left side of her mouth. She keeps biting her lip when she eats. Makes her lip bleed. Don't know how to help. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 10, 2012
How can I explain to my mom that 12:30pm is earlier in the day than 9:30pm? Why is she having trouble with that? #cancersucks #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 10, 2012
My aunt's knitting club will knit hats for cancer patients. My aunt asked Mom where she wanted the hats donated. "Guide Dogs For The Blind!"
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 11, 2012
Loving the fresh air on a warm SF evening! Last night at @CPMCinSF! Going home tomorrow! #btsm pic.twitter.com/3CcohB5c
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 11, 2012
Today's a big day for my mom. Starts the morning with physical, occupational, recreational, and speech therapies at @CPMCinSF. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 11, 2012
Then off to @UCSF to start Avastin!! So excited to be back on Avastin! Then back to @CPMCinSF to fill out discharge papers. Then home! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 11, 2012
I'm starting a project! It's a surprise present for my mom! I'm compiling happy stories from her friends & family into a book for her! #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 11, 2012
Mom is happy to be home! Only problem is that the wheelchair they gave her doesn't fit through her bedroom door. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 12, 2012
I hate anyone saying "Freshman year of college has been best year of my life!" Mine sucked. Fuck you Brain Cancer. #BrainTumorThursday #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 14, 2012
Wanted to visit my mom today, but my car just started acting weird. Mechanic says he isn't free until Tuesday. Not sure what to do! #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 15, 2012
Mom laying in new hospital bed with her wedding picture above. Parents got married in '83. Hence the perm. #btsm #mphc http://t.co/LRYfsGYz
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 17, 2012
Mom is a pro at eating corn with one hand now! She can't use her left hand. #btsm http://t.co/g2zI5lwh
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 17, 2012
I can't believe my mom's dying... #mphc #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 18, 2012
Upset with @MillsCollege for giving me less financial aid this year because they've determined I have less financial need. Seriously!? #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 18, 2012
Mom called me tonight to say goodnight. Put a big smile on my face. I saw her two days ago and I miss her so much! #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 20, 2012
Working on my mom's surprise present. Her friends are sending some great old pictures! http://t.co/ewcA64jc #btsm pic.twitter.com/b9IkXTXW
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 20, 2012
Had a dream last night that my mom was on her deathbed and I didn't finish her present in time for her to see it. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 21, 2012
Brain Cancer is killing my mom. She needs a cure. #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 21, 2012
My mom can't walk anymore. And she has trouble comprehending what people say. Please don't die, Mom. I love you. #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 21, 2012
Brain Cancer first affected my mom cognitively. Now it's destroying her physically. I'm afraid of what comes next. #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 21, 2012
Mom's a fighter. She moved to US by herself when she was 18 & started her own business. But can she beat Brain Cancer? #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 21, 2012
Dad says that my mom has been having minor seizures all week and she's lost her appetite. Not good. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 22, 2012
Mom decided my Golden Gate Bridge picture needed more improvements! #btsm pic.twitter.com/zfjKM5NE
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 23, 2012
She added more cables & fireworks, & 2 drawings of E.T. riding over bridge. Focusing on the left is hard for her. #btsm pic.twitter.com/F2O5j4jl
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 23, 2012
My mom was such a cute baby! pic.twitter.com/u5dWYX1S
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 25, 2012
She tries her best to smile :) #btsm #mphc pic.twitter.com/aB8oKeGF
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 26, 2012
Visited Mom today. Got there at 2:30. She was so exhausted, she didn't even say "Hi" to me. Went to sleep & slept for 5 hours. #btsm #chemo
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 27, 2012
There's a jar in my mom's room with $1 bills. Each time someone cries in front of her, they have to put $1 in the jar. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 27, 2012
She says she's saving up so that I can "throw a great party after I'm dead an gone." Thanks Mom. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 27, 2012
My mom's Money Jar. She's saving up for her "After Party. You know, after I'm dead and gone." #btsm #mphc http://t.co/scmgEu8F
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 27, 2012
Woke my mom up from a nap this morning & she said she was dreaming about me. "You were prettier, smarter, and nicer." #ThanksMom #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 27, 2012
... My mom is writing a list of exactly how she wants her memorial service to be. She must know the end is soon. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 28, 2012
She's one stubborn lady. "How can I make sure you'll follow my instructions for my memorial service exactly as I wrote them?" #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 28, 2012
New book #btsm #mphc pic.twitter.com/5yUB68Z7
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 28, 2012
I just want to cry my eyes out and all I can get are a few tears. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 28, 2012
Meeting with oncologist. Doctor thinks treatment isn't working & it's time for hospice. Waiting to see what MRI says in 3 weeks. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 30, 2012
Found this hand-made poster in my sister's room. Made me cry. My sister is so strong. #mphc http://t.co/MuAJdhzM
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 30, 2012
We had a great art session today! Much better than Wednesday. #btsm http://t.co/l7V9mPvM http://t.co/4uw5gJzO
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 30, 2012
My mom wants to go to the cemetary where her dad's buried to choose a plot for herself. #btsm #depressingtweet
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 30, 2012
Cancer is killing my mom but what does Cancer get out of this situation? Just another person dead? I don't understand the point. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) June 30, 2012
Trying to get my mom to do this math worksheet. It's meant for first graders. She can't do it. Not even close. #btsm pic.twitter.com/bUgCVCiw
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 1, 2012
The math itself she has no problem with, it's the matching the number to the drawing she can't do. She can't make simple connections. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 1, 2012
My mom told me today that she wants tot donate her brain to science after she dies. Does anyone know hospitals that do this? @ucsf #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 1, 2012
My mom says that she wants to plan her After Party for August 20th, because she says that's the day she's going to die. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 1, 2012
My mom's Happy Memories book is done!!!!!!! So excited for it to arrive in the mail! http://t.co/ewcA64jc #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 1, 2012
I gave my mom this worksheet to do. You're supposed to draw a line between the matching whales... #btsm http://t.co/mwlaeGGK
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 2, 2012
I asked my mom to write my name (Misha). She wrote "MMISHHHAAA" but super sloppy. Her mind's going. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 2, 2012
It seems like every single day my mom deteriorates a little more. #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 2, 2012
I've decided that the next time someone asks me how my mom's doing, I'm going to be honest. "Well she's dying. So not great." #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 2, 2012
Class in Human Development starts tomorrow. 1st assignment is "End Of Life". I have to write my own obituary. You have got to be kidding me.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 2, 2012
Begging for financial aid. $30K+ out of pocket med expenses in past 18 montths doesn't leave $ for college. No matter what FAFSA says! #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 2, 2012
Explaining to financial aid officer that parents income decreased because my mom's not working. She's dying. Couldn't hold back tears. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 2, 2012
My mom has been super tired today :( #mphc #btsm #chemo #cancersucks
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 4, 2012
My sister and I did my momm's makeup yesterday! Notice how my sister has to hold my mom's head up straight... #btsm pic.twitter.com/TpdfcyD2
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 5, 2012
My mom tried to draw the arc de triomphe. #btsm pic.twitter.com/vEtL0Cqy
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 5, 2012
My mom usually wakes up at 7am and gets up by 8am. Today its 10am and she's still asleep. #btsm #cancersucks
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 8, 2012
Yesterday the only thing my mom said was in response to my dad asking her how she was doing. She said "I'm fine. Why do you ask?" #btsm#mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 8, 2012
As my mom is degrading in cognitive abilities, I'm watching as she becomes mentally younger. 2 weeks ago we were doing 2nd grade math #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 8, 2012
Last week we were doing preschool level matching games and simple paint by numbers worksheets.#btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 8, 2012
Today her visual coordination/comprehension is starting to fail. Drawing is very difficult for her now. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 8, 2012
But se loves touching & fiddling with things. Like my belly button. She unbuttoned/rebuttoned my sweater. That's like infant level. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 8, 2012
Almost want to buy some of those toys for infants. The ones that are just funny textures & make noises. Anything to stimulate her mind #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 8, 2012
Spending the day watching my baby videos. It seems like I figured out how to do something new everyday. Totally opposite of my mom now #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 8, 2012
My mom got tired of drawing on paper, so she drew on a plum. Then she cried. And then she tried to eat the plum! #btsm http://t.co/Ezl2NJOd
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 9, 2012
Oh wait. I turned around to tweet that picture, and she ate the plum! :( #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 9, 2012
My mom looks so much more alive today than yesterday! Must be the stimulants my dad gave her. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 10, 2012
My mom is beautiful.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 10, 2012
We did some drawing today! At the bottom, she signed & dated it. Then she wrote "What a great day!" #btsm#mphc pic.twitter.com/OB3pT4L2
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 10, 2012
She's not talking anymore, but her mind is still very enthusiastic! #mphc #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 10, 2012
My mom's MRI is on Friday. Nuero-onncologist is expecting bad news. Trying to stay hopeful. #mphc #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 10, 2012
My mom barely says more than 10 words a day anymore. Why is speaking such a challenge for her now? #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 10, 2012
The Happy Memories book I made is supposed to arrive tomorrow! I'm so excited to show my mom!!!
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 11, 2012
My mom's talking today!!! But first thing she said to me was "You're not going to like this, but you're getting fat." #ThanksMom #mphc #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 11, 2012
The Happy Memories book arrived!!!!! It looks beautiful! But when I showed it to my mom, she fell asleep! #mphc #btsm pic.twitter.com/Z6VFgdbA
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 11, 2012
We read through the whole book! I think she loved it! #btsm pic.twitter.com/wXPd9vCf
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 12, 2012
My mom is so lively today! The liveliest I've seen her in almost two weeks! Maybe she's getting better? #hope #btsm #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 12, 2012
My mom seems to really enjoy symmetry worksheets. She got really into this one. #btsm pic.twitter.com/lHlJwrjj
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 12, 2012
Another symmetry worksheet :) #btsm pic.twitter.com/5OVJ0C5F
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 12, 2012
To my sister: "My (something), Be good to yourself. Be good to the world! Love, Mommy" #btsm #mphc pic.twitter.com/28txQ9oy
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 12, 2012
My mom's MRI is tomorrow. The oncoogist thinks MRI will show that it's time to start hospice. Please pray for her. #BrainTumorThursday #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 12, 2012
Yesterday my mom was talking! Never thought I'd cherish the days that my mom is speaking. Brain tumors cause such harm. #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 12, 2012
Someone asked me today if my mom's afraid of dying. You know what, I don't think she is. She's really the bravest person I know. #mphc #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 13, 2012
Pre-MRI and my mom seems like she's deep in thought. Not zoned out, but actually really thinking. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 13, 2012
MRI had no good news. The tumor has spread like wildfire. None of the 3 chemos have worked. Each lobe of the cerebrum has some tumor. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 13, 2012
Radiologist thinks some spots on MRI might be blood. Oncologist said it could be swelling, tumor, or even infection. None are good. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 14, 2012
Only parts of brain that haven't been affected are the cerebellum and the brain stem. Also some growth in gap between brain and skull. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 14, 2012
Brain cancer happens and you have no control over it. I'm just grateful to have the time I have left with my mom.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 14, 2012
Oh and the idea that you can beat cancer with hope and positive energy is bullshit.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 14, 2012
Nuero-oncologost showed us MRI. Everyone started crying except my mom. All she said was "Take me to the cemetary. I want to choose a plot."
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 14, 2012
Theres gap between your brain & skull. Didnt know a tumor could even grow there. Doc thinks it could be tumor, bleeding, or infection. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 14, 2012
I don't want to say goodbye to my mom.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 14, 2012
I had a dream last night that my mom could move her left hand. I was so happy. #cancersucks
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 15, 2012
My sister & I are looking at black dresses to wear at my mom's funeral when she dies. My sister is insisting "I need a cute dress." #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 17, 2012
Mommy away at work on more drawings :) #btsm pic.twitter.com/eZr7UYBy
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 17, 2012
The money jars are getting pretty full! There's been a lot of crying & laughing!She's saving up for her "After Party". pic.twitter.com/yKye7Z9D
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 17, 2012
I know it's silly, but I feel guilty that I will have got to spend 5 more years with my mom than my sister will get to have. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 17, 2012
Neuro-oncologist met with neuro-surgeon & radiologist. Changed expected time left for my mom from a few months to a few weeks. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 18, 2012
Thank you to @RedTapeLass for giving me the idea of giving my mom Lego's! My mom's an architect too :) #btsm pic.twitter.com/OD6rcNYu
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 19, 2012
I LOVE this doodle! - Happy Memories :D See the resemblance to the book I made? #btsm #mphc pic.twitter.com/Qqj6RdBA
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 19, 2012
My mom is sleeps like a baby. Literally. She sleeps abour 16-18 hours a day. #BrainTumorThursday
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 19, 2012
My mom hasn't eaten a single or said a single word thing all day. She's been taking a nap for 5 hours. I think my mom's really dying.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 20, 2012
Tomorrow's July 20th. Do you think my mom was just a month off when she said she'll die on August 20th?
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 20, 2012
Went to the cemetery and chose a spot for my mom. She'll be next to her mom when she passes. I hope that's what she wants.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 20, 2012
Mom has been saying that she wants to go to the cemetery to choose her own plot for weeks. We never took her & now she can't get out of bed.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 20, 2012
My cousin and her one-year-old son came to visit today. My cousin said "Look, Auntie is night night." Baby boy responded "Nuh-Uh."
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 20, 2012
My mom has eaten anything or said anything or even opened her eyes in almost 48 hours. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 20, 2012
My mom hasn't eaten all day. It's the first day of Ramadan. Maybe she's just fasting?
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 21, 2012
My mom's temperature is 101.2F and her heart rate is 162. I don't think those are good signs. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 21, 2012
I'm going to be a fucking mess when she dies.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 21, 2012
In my dream my mom was asleep and just stopped breathing. But then gasped for air just to say "Help me get dressed so we can go out to eat."
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 21, 2012
My sister & I chose to sleep on the floor last night at the foot of my mom's bed. Tried to pretend it was a slumber party.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 21, 2012
My mom's basically in a coma, and I get an awful stomach ache. I wish my mommy could make me feel better. That's all I want.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 21, 2012
My friends went skydiving today. Guess what I did? I slept next to my mom. I was nauseous and she's basically in a coma. #Summer2012 #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 22, 2012
Day four of this sleep/coma thing. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 22, 2012
I put earrings on her :) pic.twitter.com/f3eUlDa3
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 22, 2012
I think my cousin's 18-month-old son knows more than we think he does. I asked him "Is Aunt Noushin night-night?" He shook his head no.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 22, 2012
My dad's been playing this song for my mom on repeat - 'My Sweet Lady' by John Denver http://t.co/hGDcyT3e
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 23, 2012
My sister just took my mom's nail polish off to do a different color. Her nails are a brownish blue color. Not a good sign.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 23, 2012
Her eyes have glazed over and the whites of her eyes are starting to turn yellow.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 23, 2012
Off to the funeral home to make arrangements.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 23, 2012
What is the fucking point of cancer? It's winning the battle with my mom, but what does it get out of it? The cancer dies too! #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 23, 2012
i had my second dream this week about my mom dying. This time I wasn't there for it. I started wailing and sobbing in public. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 24, 2012
We'll be donating Mom's brain to @UCSF Brain Tumor Research Center when she passes. They will compare the actual brain with her MRI. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 24, 2012
So when neuro-oncologists look at MRIs, they will hopefully have a better idea which parts are tumor & which parts are just swelling. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 24, 2012
Today is Day 6 of my mom being in this deep sleep/coma-like state. It almost feels like the new normal. But I know it won't last long. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 24, 2012
My mom hasn't eaten or drunken anything in 6 days. How much longer can a body survive like this? #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 24, 2012
Mom's developed a weird bump on her forehead. Its squishy and its in the spot that the MRI showed tumor in between the brain & skull. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 24, 2012
Mom's face is turning blue...
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
I don't want my mom to go anywhere. I just want her to wake up. I just want her to wake up. I just want her to wake up. Please wake up.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
My Barney is my favorite childhood stuffed animal. I use him as a pillow at night. So does my mom :) pic.twitter.com/ftwb4VTV
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
I don't understand how/why my mom's face keeps changing colors so fast. From pink to pale white to tan brown to blue to pink again.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
My crying will only come out in short spurts. I just want it all to come out so I can get it over with.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
My sister and I got black dresses today. #Preparation #Acceptance
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
I don't want my mom to die. I'm afraid of grieving. I'm afraid I'll never be happy again.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
Day 7 with no food or water. No IV fluids either. My mom is so incredibly strong.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
I'm so anxious and scared. I hate this feeling.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
UCSF nurse suggests we stop giving my mom steroids. She said they might be keeping her alive. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
My mom's eyelids twitch occasionally. My heart starts pounding. Then I think that she may open her eyes! But she never does. #mphc
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
I just start sobbing at very random times throughout the day. It'll come out of nowhere. And only last for about 10 second.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
My heart still wants my mom to live, even if that means staying in this coma. But I know that's not what she wants.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 25, 2012
I feel like we're all just waiting around for my mom to die, but I don't mind. I like just sitting next to her. I could do this forever.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 26, 2012
I cry. I beg my mom for a hug. But she can't give me one. I try to hug her anyways. It just makes me cry more.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 26, 2012
This is what people must mean when they say someone is on their death bed. I always imagined the person to look more in pain or in distress.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 26, 2012
I'm grateful that my mom looks so incredibly peaceful. She has nothing to worry about. We're all going to take care of each other.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 26, 2012
Day 8. No food. No water. No IV fluids. No feeding tube. Nothing. Just sleep. Amazing that she's still here. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 26, 2012
Well I won't be sleeping tonight.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
Tonight might be the night. It's not August 20th, she's fought as hard as she could. #btsm
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
Everyone else has gone to sleep, but I'm too afraid.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
I don't want to wake up and find my mom dead.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
Day 9. Damn she's a fighter.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
Her breathing went back to normal, so I got a few hours of sleep.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
We don't know why she's still holding on. What could she possibly be waiting for? Her mom comes everyday. We finished the book. What else?
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
Dad has decided that he's going to tell her that today's August 20th. We don't want her holding on until August 20th.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
Social worker said maybe we're giving her so much love that she doesn't want to leave us, no matter how excited she is to see her dad again.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
I keep forgetting that my dad's going to be a widow.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
My mom is only taking 7 breaths per minute. She was taking 12 per minute just a few hours ago.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 27, 2012
Breaks between my mom's breaths are lasting up to 10 seconds...
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 28, 2012
The pauses between her breaths are getting longer. I counted one pause that was 18 seconds.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 28, 2012
But her hands and feet are still very warm, but her face is turning blue again.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 28, 2012
I feel guilty feeling this way, but after 9 days of sitting by my mom while she's in a coma, I'm starting to get kind of bored.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 28, 2012
Why is she dragging this out so much? I think it makes things harder.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 28, 2012
Good morning. Mom is still alive. Day 10 of no food or water. Just sleep.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 28, 2012
Everyone's looking at my mom and crying. Not me. I look at her and smile. She's so beautiful!
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 28, 2012
I think tonight might really he the night. I hate that I'm having such a hard time staying awake.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 29, 2012
My mom's.... gone.
— ComingHomeToCancer (@CHTCancer) July 29, 2012
Thank you for sharing this.
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